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Holarichiwa

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 06:52:55 GMT

My name is Bob. I'm a three year-old, Asian-African-Irish-American-Martian, from Mercury. I'm three feet, five hundred inches, and with a weight of four bags of Legoes. My diet consists of chocolate pies, strawberry sushi, and cheese steak. My hobbies include burrowing into the center of the Earth, sniffing paper, and taking long walks on the surface of the Sun.

Nice to meet you.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 03:12:00 GMT

I'd rather rip my eyes out than see you people again.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 20:35:07 GMT

Hm..

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 22:20:37 GMT

Anyone wanna hang out tomorrow?

!~@!#@$

Heh, guess not.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 01:06:01 GMT

I remember.
After we ate lunch we just ran outside, down that long ramp, through the gates, and played tag. We played tag in the big park also, but the park with the playground was always more fun.
Heh, but I think lunch might've been more fun than recess. I remember you use to make a mess all the time, and you always told him to clean his mess up or you'd make him clean it with his tounge. And you, you were hyper as hell back then, what happened? Now you just read books all the time and you're always sleepy. Oh, you, you haven't changed much, still your hyper self, and you can still kick my ass in games, shut up, don't deny it. Hmm... you... we never hung out much in elementry school, at least not from what I can remember, but we hung out alot in middle school, and if I wouldn't come then you'd get everyone to annoy the fuck out of me to come. It was nice. Showed you cared.
Heh.
Yeah, I remember.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 06:35:36 GMT

Blah...lala...blabla...

Haven't really been talking to people much. I start up conversations with people and it dies out in less than 5 minutes. And I haven't talked to Abby since our last date.

Right, I shouldn't be depressed, I have an entire week off, freedom for a week, no need to wake up early to run for the train, no need to worry about not getting homework in, and especially no need to hear the crap my classmates throw at me.

But that's an entire week of nothing. Nothing to fucking do.

And no, I'm not emo. If I am, I don't want to be.

Rising Light

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 02:31:42 GMT

I sit
I wait
For the darkness to leave
On the cold freezing floors
On the bottom of the sea
The demons
I see them
They inch towards me
But still I wait
For the end of misery

The burning fire
The warmth of light
It's within grasp
It's within sight
Stop waiting to be saved
Journey forth
Don't cry
The future awaits
Don't wait here to die.

-KrcN

Right, just made this because my last one is a month old and it's probably the emo-est thing I've written- or at least one of the emo-est things I've written, so yeah. This has a sort of a happyish ending? Meh, whatever.

Am I human... Am I machine... I'm not sure... I'm somewhere in between...

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 02:57:06 GMT

Falling into a depression. Again. This time it doesn't feel the same as the other ones. Feels like this one's going to last a bit longer.

I'm depressed because no one will talk to me... but no one will talk to me because I'm depressed. It's a cycle I've tried breaking on more than one occasion, but I always mess up in the end.

Even when someone does try to talk to me I be the idiot I am and I just stare with the stupid gloomy face I always have. I don't even try to pull myself out of this hell hole I've fallen in. I sit like a baby waiting for a rescue team.

Heck, even my old middle school and elementry school friends won't hang out with me. There are better people to hang out with. When I ask them if they want to hang out they say they're busy, but then if I walk out on the streets I'd see them with some other people. Believe me, this has happened more than once. They say they're busy and then the next week they start posting pictures of them hanging out in the park or something. It makes me sick. Sick to my fucking core.

Damn, I didn't even do anything wrong. Why the fuck am I the one being punished with sadness and madness.

And now I feel like some brat who complains about everything

I guess that wouldn't be too far off. I've got what I need to make my life better, I'm just too lazy or too damn fucking retarded to go and actually start bring my life out of the hell I've pushed it into.

But still, my friends... I don't even know why I call them that. They're just people. When I get depressed most of them don't even talk to me, they ignore me. The ones who do talk to me... it just feels like they don't want my blood on their hands if I do something extreme. Fuck, when I am in a good mood no one talks to me, either that or they do what I said above and hang out with other people because they have cooler stuff or they have a better personality.

Hell, I've gone through days where I've never had conversations with anyone in real life, on Aim, or anywhere. That's just sad. I'd bet if I crawled under my bed and died no one would notice me gone for weeks. And then, they'd probably notice only because they've noticed no one has bugged them about being depressed in a while.

And again, I feel like I'm whining like a baby.

And again even if someone responds to this I'd feel like they just don't want my blood on their hands.

Looking down the barrel of a gun... and I'm a little hungry

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 21:26:56 GMT

Blahgeregaegere. Been trying to draw stuff with more realism, or at least not as cartoony as I use to. I really don't feel like drawing much anymore, mostly because of my BTHS classmates. They look over my shoulder whenever I draw and then they start criticizing me when they can't draw any better! Hell, they draw just as good as 5 year-olds, probably worse.

Anywhooo, report cards come in tomorrow. I failed like over 4 classes.

Fuck.

Shit.

Ass.

Mother fucking piece of ass shit.

Yeah, I think I'll go with that.

MOTHER FUCKING PIECE OF ASS SHIT!

Blalala

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 05:34:14 GMT

Well I've been having a rough couple of days, but today (or I guess I should say yesterday since it's 1:30AM Saturday right now...) was okay, I don't think anything really bad happened other than me waking up late to school. Bleh, I miss you guys, I don't really have anyone to talk to in Tech where I can have a fun, lengthy conversation with. I've been trying to fill the gap you guys left in me by playing a lot of games and watching an unhealthy amount of Stargate, but it's not really working (although I've gotta say, I really get sucked into Stargate, it's good shit).

Plus my drawing skills aren't really improving, right now the only style I can draw is cartoonish, that and sloppy sketches, I'm not good with details and stuff. Been trying to draw realistic eyes and hands, but the eyes always turn anime and the hands always look deformed. x_x...